Resonance of the heart.

One more month to SPM. Tension and stress level rises as usual for every SPM student. so why would I be posting a blogpost at this time? I mean, Bryan Tang who doesn't even post much nowadays suddenly post a blogpost when SPM is so near.

I've been having sleepless nights this few nights. I'm worried about how i will do for my exam, but not only that, what am i going to do after that. all this questions keep flooding my mind though i know dreaming bout dream doesn't make 'em come true if i don't act on it.

What should I do after my spm? Where do I want to go and where does God wants me to go? Should I go to Liberty to study music and worship or should I go for medicine? I was thinking how to get there, when i am there, and life after that. Can't stop thinking. haha all sorts of word questions. what do you think?

Oh well, without a good result I won't even be going anywhere. My trial results were horrible. only 4As and 5Bs and C. how is that suppose to get me anywhere? I was very dissapointed with it and with myself.

But let me just post it here so that when my SPM result come up, and if it is good, you know that it is God working through me and it's not by my own power.

For those who are reading this post, please pray for me that God will show me which way to take. And also that'll I'll be able to study well and do well for my SPM. do keep the rest of the SPM candidates in our church in prayer too:)

Timetable for 5 Indigo, July 20th onwards

Embracing the Will of God for my life.

This past two weeks have been quite a refreshing week to me. Last Thursday till Saturday, my church held a camp at Golden Sands Baptist Assembly. Place was quite good, food was decent, beach was clean, people were nice to be with, games and music were nice(hopefully):P. But more importantly, i think that God has again reminded me of who He is and how forgetful I am all the time. Rev. Earl Bengs was the speaker for my camp. I believe that God had used Him as His messenger to remind me of His Word. 

In short, God reminded me to just follow Him no matter what the cost is and to be obedient to His calling. 

I've always felt that I am the cause of everything that goes bad, and always felt that I am extremely uncapable of doing what God wants me to do because of my weakness. For a long time this was how i felt. However, in this camp God reminded me that He is that Creator of everything that I am seeing now. When I am in my mum's womb God had arranged every single DNA in my body to be exactly how it is, God already knows my name before I was even born. Every weakness I have in me, He has already seen it. My whole life lays out before Him like a script that He could just read it like a book through and through. So if my God tells me to do whatever it is, who am I to say "no, I won't" because I can't? If God, the One with his right hand had streched out the heaven, says that He'll see me through it as I obey Him, is there any reason for me to say I am not suitable to do it? I know I'm weak but if the Lord says go, I will go as long as He goes with me. Will you go if He ask you to? 

I think you are probably having a hard time understanding what I am writing the paragraph above, I apologize for that. Just right here I want to tell everyone that reads my blog that you're special, very special. God had created you and He knows you by name, no matter how lonely and desserted you feel like you are, God is right there beside you. May you embrace His will for your life, because there's no other place better to be at than at the center of God's will.

I would also like to thank Matthew McGee, a great brother in Christ of mine that kinda mentored me through 3 years back. His obedience to the Lord had changed and touched many lives including mine. His coming back this time round for a short few days had reminded me that being obedient to God is really important. He also said that the more he read the bible the more he really sees that the bible really is the Word of God. 

So this week is an encouraging week to me and I thank God for that. May I always embrace His will for me in my life, be it death or life,  and always stay on my knees praying and being close to His Word. God bless you readers=)

VICU-07/03/09

There was no meeting last week due to the large number of people that are unable to attend. Hope that everyone had a great week.

This coming Friday, our main topic will be sin. So throughout the week, have some thoughts about it. Game master of the week will be Calvin and Song Leader will be Eddie. Thanks so much for your help:) See you then!

Being the Martha Me, Wishing to be Mary Me

For a long time, I've felt burdened with "duties" in church. 

But as I let go of everything today in church. Just not concerning about anything. Just coming with a heart expecting to meet Jesus and sing songs to Him refreshed me so much. Just to pause and to breathe. For a long time I've been Martha, being so bogged down with things to do and neglected my relationship with God. I feel very down sometimes. O How i need to be the Mary that sits by Jesus' feet every moment. 

As you read this post would you pray for me that I would be honest and true in all I do and pray that I would press on hard to know Him and to commune with our one and only true God every moment. And to have that sweet joyous fellowship every moment.

And I would want to thank Tim and the rest of the worship team as well. Leading such a wonderful worship moment really refreshed my heart soul and mind, just singing my heart out and tears out. Thank you so much.

Don't Just Let It Slip Away..

Her name was Connie.
she's my dad's younger sister. Her life on earth ended on Sunday and got cremated today.

A cancer patient who recovered after an operation and accepted Christ when she almost died few months ago. But today, she's no longer here. never did we know that she would go on with Jesus so soon. The cause of her death is still unknown, probably due to her illness.

Though accepted Christ then, she never step into the church, and never had a chance to give her testimony of how God saved her from cancer. And buried in a buddhist way with all the chanting and songs as she never told her family that she wants to be buried as a christian. As the rituals were going on today for the cremation, as some people took joss stick and bowed before her, I really wonder what really is happening.

She never got a chance to tell these people that she's saved by Jesus. not a pastor to preach the good news that she's alive with Jesus in a place far greater, but instead, a buddhist monk praying for her death. Wasted her death without telling others about the great gospel. Yet, my heart still prays that the rest of the people who are present, would somehow know that Jesus is our Saviour. But still, I give thanks that she accepted Christ into her life and I dearly respect her, and knowing that one day I will see her in heaven.

So people, we really do not know when death will finally crawl up to us. Think of what is important and cherish it. Do not procrasinate. Tell others about the great gospel before we end up before Jesus. Imagine standing before God and telling Him that you never tell others about Him before. Or imagine you standing beside God looking at people praying to you. I hope that we won't waste our lives my beloved brothers and sisters. Do what that truly matters.

in Haggai 1:5-8

5Now this is what the LORD almighty says: "Give careful thought to your ways. 6You have planteed much, but harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it" 7This is what the Lord almighty says: "Give careful thought to your ways, Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build the house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored," says the LORD.

Things in this world will never satisfy us for long, money, pleasures, food, homes.. These things will go away one day. but only what's done for God will remain, for when we die, we go to the LORD. what on earth will remain? not fame, not money, not food, not pleasures.. Let us therefore give careful thought about our ways.


ONLY ONE LIFE T'WILL SOON BE PAST
ONLY WHAT'S DONE FOR CHRIST WILL LAST!

Jesus Feeding the Five Thousand.

VI Christian Union
today, we talked about Jesus Feeding the five thousand.
Our story is taken from John 6:1-1

¹Some time after this, Jesus crossed to the far shore of the Sea of Galilee (that is, the Sea of Tiberias), ²and a great crowd of people followed him because they saw the miraculous signs he had performed on the sick. ³Then Jesus went up on a mountainside and sat down with his disciples. ⁴The Jewish Passover Feast was near.

⁵When Jesus looked up and saw a great crowd coming toward him, he said to Philip, "Where shall we buy bread for these people to eat?" ⁶He asked this only to test him, for he already had in mind what he was going to do.

⁷Philip answered him, "Eight months' wages would not buy enough bread for each one to have a bite!"

⁸Another of his disciples, Andrew, Simon Peter's brother, spoke up, ⁹"Here is a boy with five small barley loaves and two small fish, but how far will they go among so many?"

¹⁰Jesus said, "Have the people sit down."There was plenty of grass in that place, and the men sat down, about five thousand of them. ¹¹Jesus then took the loaves, gave thanks,

and distributed to those who were seated as much as they wanted. He did the same with the fish.

¹²When they had all had enough to eat, he said to his disciples, "Gather the pieces that are left over. Let nothing be wasted." ¹³So they gathered them and filled twelve baskets with the pieces of the five barley loaves left over by those who had eaten.

Four points were talked about today, and it is based on the acronym of
ROGT(Roses On Garden Trees:P)

R- resources doesn't count
In the story, Jesus tested Philip on purpose, to show them that it is quite impossible to feed so many people with wwhat they had. Jesus tested them so that in return, they can see His power even more clearly. They clearly do not have enough to feed the people but God shows that nothing is impossible!

In our school, how much can the few of us do? We must always remember that it is not our number that counts, but what GOD can DO!

O-Offering up everything we have, no matter how little!
The little boy's offering of 5 bread and 2 fishes is nothing compared to a number of about 15000 people(adding in the children and women). it is like 7 to 15000! I don't think anyone would need to do study maths to do the calculations and say that it is insane to be feeding them with so little. However, the boy knows that though it is little, he still offered it all up. And through that, God used his "little offering" to feed that huge crowd. When we offer up things, it doesn't matter how much we have, but in all that we do, we have to give all that we have!

G-Give thanks instead of complaining!
Jesus wasn't complaining about how little he had, but instead, he gave thanks for what he had received from the little boy. it is very easy for us to complain whenever we face troubles, but instead of focusing on what we lack of, let us take time to give thanks for what we have:)

T-Trust in God no matter what!
Whenever we hear God's voice calling to us to do something, whenever we face troubles or problems, always know that God knows what is He doing and He will lead you through it. Jesus knew what he will do before he tested Philip, and God knows what He's doing when He calls you! Therefore, Proverbs 3:5-6, Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.

CONCLUSION, we are to be like that little boy, offer up everything we have no matter how little it is, and trust in Him as He leads us and guide us!


extras**
As i dismissed the CU today , I had an urged to follow my friends for lunch,(they joined CU for awhile though they are not believers) and i'm very glad about it. As we walk to the place we will have lunch, they began asking about Christianity and I'm glad I could share the gospel with them.

This is an example of following the guidance of the Holy Spirit and trusting in Him. I could had walked off back home, not follow them and never had the chance to share with 'em. So, please pray for my friends too, hoping that they will one day come and see the gospel and embrace it themselves, named-Yoong Meng, Yeong Han and Tai Foong. thanks!

NOTE* to all VICU members: please remember to bring your sports attire this coming friday(27/02/2009)